This war is noise.

Cookies and milk?
October 21, 2009, 1:41 am
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As someone from the UK, I cant say its something I’ve really done before, but Oreos and Frijj Chocolate Milkshake together = ohmywordyum.


So physio is starting next Tuesday instead of today since the girl got sick. Figures.

Went to the doctor, being referred for a review in the hospital again, to make sure Im alright.

Seen Zoe from school in the surgery, so changed.

But still the same too.

Was cool :]

I got all the paperworkish stuff out of the way that I had to aswell, so Im going pretty well :]

Still addicted to Harvest Moon x]

Going shopping tomorrow, hurrah! 😀

I need winter clothes, or I will actually die xD its only October and Im f r e e z i n g.

Hope all is well :]

Update of sorts.
October 18, 2009, 9:25 pm
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Lately, I’ve been reading Angel Sanctuary Manga, Im on book 6, out of 20 lol I do love it though, I’ve currently got 12 of the books 😛

Still addicted to Rune Factory Harvest Moon x] and started watching Trigun the anime too.

Dissidia annoyed me, so I’ve been avoiding it a bit >.> lol.

I finally got to talk to Belly online again ;D was nice.

Im generally frustrated with life. Im getting pains again, hearing from literally no one most days, kinda sucks.

Although it hasnt been bothering me as much cos I’ve had plenty to distract me, its still there.

As far as things with him, I dont know lol.

I hate today. I hate feeling ill, I hate feeling alone, and thats exactly what today is.

Whats worse is, no one cares about either, and I wish someone did.

I dont want to be by myself.

I always am, and I dont want to be.


Totally over it.
October 18, 2009, 9:15 pm
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I’ve been thinking lately about how I barely ever hear from anyone and whether it should bother me or not, cos if they arent bothered, should it really bother me? Are they actual friends at all?

Life has got far too quiet.

Half time I just think Im not a valid human being anymore, and thats why people stopped caring. I mean, everyone knows where I am?

I’ve probably become more of a burden than anything else. Being ill on and off constantly.

Suppose that’d make things easier if I decided to go.

No one would miss someone that wasnt really in their life in the first place.

And almost everyone I know is just over having me in their life, or over contacting me.

And I dunno what Im meant to do. I never asked for any of this.

Thing is, no one cares what I do either. :/

Im practically invisible.

And Im so over being invisible. But I dont get a choice.

October 6, 2009, 4:02 am
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March on.
October 5, 2009, 9:58 pm
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Life is so full of ups and downs.

Sometimes you just cant cope.

Then the next thing you could be at your cousins wedding party getting really drunk, with a purple fringe.

Lol I know, what is my life even doing!?

I was strangely rather able to maintain a good mood lol and be pretty normal with everyone.

I got the avon done today, which is good ^.^ got my first christmas decoration aswell. Its a snow covered mountain with penguins, snowmen and a polar bear skiing/dancing, and lights up, and plays 8 different christmas carols, and has a quiet mode too. Oh and a christmas countdown timer thing aswell. ^.^

I also got a rudolf mug, and when you fill it with a hot drink, its black nose turns red x] came with a spoon too.

Getting rather festive early, I know lol. But halloween really has never meant that much to me so Im already looking forward to December x] and to think after that, I’ll be 21 o_o lol.

Im starting to think about writing music again. I feel randomly inspired.

I also need to be dead on strict about losing weight again, cos I’ve been letting slip and I think I’ve put just a little back on. Def something I can recover from with being generally sensible lol.

I also need to get some winter clothes.

And I bought my first pair of tights since I was 10 lmao. Was rather interesting since I had >no< idea what I needed.

Last session of physio this week. Will certainly be asking to be referred for more.

Dad came back from a 3 week break at the care home for us lol. He attempted to ask me and my brother if we missed him lol dont ask questions you dont want answers to is what I say. He asked was bonnie looking for him, and she really wasnt. Which was odd to say but I actually did, said she was more concerned about getting the sofa, which she actually was lol.

Hope everyone is well :]