This war is noise.

August 23, 2010, 1:16 am
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I knew you were acting a bit strange with me for a reason.

Almost been 4 days now.

Was super ill over this weekend though, so I probably wouldnt have been exactly great for conversation.

Dads been gone for 9 days now, which is good.

Citizens advice appointment today, 12 hours from now.

New mattress is pretty great.

New saving of FF8 going pretty well.

Got two new books :]

Caught up with Sara the other day too, 2 hours on the phone, was super nice. :]

Hope all is well.


Busy week.
August 7, 2010, 4:13 pm
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Physio on wednesday, Citizens advice on thursday, Shopping on friday, Visiting my aunt today.

9 days now since I’ve heard from him.

But I’ve been able to not think about it too much, with being busy.

And sleeping alot.

Watching Darker Than Black atm. Its pretty good :]

Having Anderson around alot more has been nice :]

Hope all is well.

If you believe its in my soul.
August 3, 2010, 1:33 am
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I have one important person in my life that I havnt talked to in almost 5 days.

I have another telling me Im great, that Im worthy, that Im enough.

I’ve been watching One Tree Hill all day, done the avon and stuff.

Feel like somethings about to change or something.

About to get better.


I need that fire back.

Cos I’ve always had it. I know I have heart.

And sure alot of shit is fucked up, but I need to believe I can unfuck it.

If that makes any sense? lol.

Im glad Im writing more often than not now.

Im getting stuff out, Im not letting things sit in my head and crush me.

Im going to focus on doing stuff for awhile instead of thinking about stuff.


August 1, 2010, 4:46 am
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Why do we read what we shouldnt, when we know we’re going to find out something we’d rather not?

Cos knowing is better than living a lie.

Heart just sank.

I honestly dont know what I want to do at this point.

Ouran Highschool Host Club was fun to watch.

Was good to rewatch Interstella 5555 too.

Burst Angel or Darker Than Black next.

Its been 3-4 days.

I cant sleep.