This war is noise.


Fucked up.
November 28, 2011, 10:47 pm
Filed under: Uncategorized

2-3 years I suffered, and it was the one positive out of it.

I lost weight and felt better about myself.

Christmas shopping today, I felt disgusting.

I’d be getting clothes 2 sizes smaller a year ago.

Some clothes my size didnt even fit because of my stupid arms.

My stupid everything.

I feel awful.

I had to try so hard not to get upset right there in the middle of the shops.

I got so deflated that I felt almost back to square one, appearance wise.

I know I’ve been overeating lately, I’ve been trying to ignore it.

Because Im not exercising either.

Im just doing physio.

Its harder this year to recover too.

I hate it. I hate this.

I hate myself for being like this.

It brings me so far down.

Thats the thing about having brains over natural beauty.

You’re smart enough to know how ugly you are.

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