This war is noise.

Useful information?
May 22, 2014, 12:38 am
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Why drink infused waters?

1. Green tea, mint, and lime – For fat burning, digestion, headaches, congestion and breath freshener.

2. Strawberry and kiwi – For cardiovascular health, immune system protection, blood sugar regulation, digestion.

3. Cucumber, lime, and lemon – For water weight management, bloating, appetite control, hydration, digestion

4. Lemon, lime, and orange – For digestion vitamin C, immune defence, heartburn, (Drink this one at room temperature)

Infused waters are good for detoxification energy and hydration. Put as much fruit in water as you like and let the water sit for at least 30 minutes before drinking.

I’m considering trying all of that after seeing a helpful posted suggestion.

If I was just to bookmark or favourite and not replicate it somewhere else I visit often enough I’d forget about it though, so here we are :] feel free to also try and comment if they help or not. Shall be a learning adventure for all of us!

And even if they don’t help the things they say they do necessarily, its still fruit and water. Its healthy regardless, so some good will come from it.

I’m feeling a bit better today after getting those thoughts out of my brain and processed a bit.

Having the sleep and unexpected conversation upon waking made things a little brighter too.

And the sun was out all day, barely even got dark until 10pm.

Plenty of errands to take care of tomorrow, but will be glad to have them taken care of now I’ve done all the preparation to do so already.

Still on my cleaning and organising kick, getting more box files and such for my papers.

I am going to kick start back into my crafting soon. If anything I need to use the stuff so I have room to acquire any more, its getting out of hand lol.

Now that KH is almost over, apart from the replay merely for trophy purposes, I’ll be finally on to my next game, which I’m looking forward to [:

I really want to play Legend of Legaia again…I’ve made so many savings already…I have a problem lol.

I did some singing today, I’ve been singing again, once a week, strengthening my voice because I don’t want to lose the voice I spent so much time as an adult and teenager working on. It’s always something I’ve been super proud of, was something I could always rely on about myself, and the joy I get naturally from singing, and extra from singing well, which I believe I do once I’m back on form, I think its something I need. Something that is important to me and was left behind a lot with all the illness and everything else.

I still have my health concerns trying to tap in to the fear currently in my mind, but I’m hoping things will be okay.

I hope all is well.

Reverie in May.
May 21, 2014, 1:49 am
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I’m still not in great sorts. I regret the other day.

I tend not to regret anything like that but I do.

I feel like I lost the point or something.

Or ignored it.

Or reinforced the belief that the bad behaviour is okay.

Its not okay.

Still really disillusioned with people.

Feeling a bit scared about my health.

Sad about a lot of the main events that have defined this year so far.

So much loss.

Life has been so much darker since March.

I have taken in to account the little positives of today, beating that level 3 gummi ship mission and carrying out most of the errands I wanted to.

I’m still unsettled though.

This year is either going to be something I am proud to overcome, or will lead to something hopeless.

I’m hoping, please, for something good to lift this.

Will you wake up?
May 17, 2014, 2:53 pm
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All I ever get is more proof no one loves me, no one cares, no one wants to put me first just once.

Maybe not even first, just keep me in mind.

Treat me like I have some sort of importance.

Like I matter to you.

Like if I cool things down because I feel like I’m not being treated well enough while you sort yourself out, and then you treat me worse still, where else do turn?

As I sit here in my room, listening to Green Day, age 25, single and unwell, no one cares.

Literally no one, apart from someone I pay to talk to.

When thinking of the future all I have is despair.

What else can I have?

I so badly want to be above these feelings.

To stop being let down and decide I don’t need anyone.

And mean it.

Instead of trying to trust people, then getting stepped on and disregarded.

Time and feelings invested, all wasted.

And I can say that maybe I’d be better off without people like that in my life.

But I’m still the one that loses out. I’m still the one left alone.

I never get a good outcome from it.

There’s nothing.