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Im not exactly sure why I havnt been writing much in here, cos I have had stuff to talk about.
I’ve had a few days that were pretty good :]
Been talking alot more, counsellings going well.
Almost sorted for christmas.
Havnt heard from Nathan in 8 days now.
Im hoping I’ll hear from him soon.
I think I didnt type much for a little bit cos I felt a bit isolated? I wasnt hearing much from people, but in the past few days I’ve heard from people, even people I hadnt heard from in a long time, which has been nice :]
Tonight I guess I took to writing cos I was kinda sick of lying in bed crying.
I’ve been upset for a couple hours now really…having a down phase.
I have eaten well and stuff, its just, a certain conversation has started off a spiral of thoughts for me.
And so I started watching something to try and take my mind off it, but it kinda made things a little worse for me.
Not that Im not happy for the couple I watched lol esp a guy from where Im from, its just..it reminds me of why I was sad in the first place.
Feeling like Im not going to be so lucky.
That Im going to have to struggle through my life on my own.
Because I get those thoughts alot. And Im aware of things that have contributed it, my entire life lol but yeah.
I just wish things were different I suppose.
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